Sunday, 25 December 2011

Remembering Joshua

When you loose a baby, your life changes forever. Nothing is ever quite the same again, and every happy family event is always tinged with sadness , aware of the gap where that precious child should be.
Since Joshua died 8 years ago, we have thought of meaningful ways to celebrate him. On Christmas Day we visit the little chapel in the hospital where he was born locally. It is where his name is written in the book of remembrance, as well as being the first hospital I ran my charity in, and where all my subsequent  rainbow babies were born.
They have thoughtfully in more recent years placed a tress of Remembrance in the foyer and the children always enjoy writing messages to Joshua and placing them on this. For two years now, we have also placed on it messages for their Gaga, my mum as well. We also bring and light candles and remember too, the other precious baby's of my friends, new and old as well.
Before I lost a baby, this would have seemed a rather sombre thing to do on such a happy day, yet I am pleased how much the children all still enjoy going, and how meaningful it is to them ,as well as us.
It is of some comfort, amidst all the noise and haste of Christmas, that I can take a few special moments to remember the little son who isn't present, opening his lego, and playing with his siblings as he should be. For him there was a different plan. We love and remember you too this special day!





Joshua James Beavan 16-19-09-03

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